Friday evening. It is quiet—finally. It is boy’s movie night. I live in a house full of men. They have left me alone with my thoughts. I adore my boys probably more than they can imagine. But on nights like this I miss my daughter terribly. In my mind she would have been my ally in this male world, much like I was for my mother in her house filled with men. But I am left to trust that my little girl is in a better Place. And that is where this story begins--and ends--with trust.
Several months ago I was made aware that I am surrounded by a community of friends that will help support me until the day that I am reunited with my littlest one. This most special community of women support and bolster one another during this journey through life. Our view of the world is taken from a unique perspective. Together we are brave and strong. Together is the way Christ intended us to journey.
It was made clear to me that I would travel with this pack under a special name to be given to me at a prescribed time. I am not good at waiting. In fact I am decidedly un-good at it. I knew right away that ‘Patience’ would not be my moniker—despite knowing our Lord to have a tremendous sense of humor. I worked very hard at not thinking of possible names for myself. I knew that it had to be a gift and that I couldn’t generate it on my own. Then early one morning as I was thinking about not thinking up a name for myself, the Lord put “you must trust” on my heart. Trust. At that very instant I knew that Trust was the name I would bear. Despite the fact that I found Trust to be only slightly less ironic that Patience for me, I know that Trust was mine.
I now see the world through the lens of Trust. When doubt, fear, unhappiness or anger penetrates my heart, I immediately hear “trust”. I am learning to trust—to rely on trust, to rest in trust. I am also learning to depend on my community—a group filled with mercy, peace, hope, endurance, harmony, grace and many others. I am learning to be trust for them.
Life this side of Heaven is a challenge. Traveling in a caravan, surrounded by the Holy Spirit and surrendering myself to Trust helps me to meet that challenge head-on.
I know that it is time to let go of the reins and let Trust lead me Home.
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