Balance

Hi, my name is Jessica and I am riding on balance. Last Christmas I spent a few days with my spiritual mom (on time) and her sister (purpose), I had noticed a difference in my spiritual mom for a few weeks she was living her life different. We all were all talking and they shared the camel way of life with me. I said yes that night to the Holy Spirit to join the caravan. I remember thinking it will be several weeks before God would give me my name, in the middle of the night I woke up and heard balance. I said 'balance, Lord what does this mean?' He said 'your camels name is balance.' I laughed because Jessica in herself is very unbalanced, I am either one extreme or the other. I have been that way my whole life.

My journey with the Camel had begun, I wish I could say it has been a wonderful year and I have lived the Camel way of life. This year I moved to Alabama to help take care of my mom who is sick, I did not want to be there. I wanted to be home in Arkansas. I feel like most of this year has been spent hanging upside down on balance. I went through a period of time where I wanted to shoot my camel because it was a constant reminder to me that there was a better way of life, a life of surrender, a life of yielding and a life filled with many traveling companions. Surrender sounds so easy but in reality it is a daily process of saying Lord your way not mine own. I still ride sideways at times but the important thing is that I am still on my Camel on the way to my bridegroom.

I thank God for all my traveling companions, I draw off of them so much and God has showed me things through people who I have never even talked to. I am in a place where I normally do not have access to the internet but I have each camels name and I look over them. God will show me something through a name for that day. That has summoned up my year with balance. I look forward to 2014 with balance and all of my traveling companions.

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